While we wait

Writers block doesn’t happen to me often, but lately I seem to be at a loss for words, which is why I haven’t posted in awhile. But I think it’s finally back, it usually doesn’t last long. :) I have gone through waves of emotion since being home from the hospital from being frustrated to elated. Frustrated that I don’t have the energy to keep up with everything that I’d like to and elated just to be home with my family and kiss my babies goodnight. I have several tests to go through yet and have to wait until the 20th to find out exactly what is going on, it seems like a long time to wait. I’ve had a lot of time to think and pray and just reflect on life and what it really means and whether or not I use what knowledge God has given me in accordance with how I live. A lot of things have gone through my mind and what I have been making very complicated has become very simple all of a sudden. Life is uncertain. I don’t know if I’ll wake up tomorrow or blow out 90 candles in 60 years. We all walk through the same world yet many of us take different paths and some we don’t choose but must walk anyway, sometimes I’ve crawled. No matter where this path leads that I’m staring down the only thing I know for sure is that I’m not alone. Not only am I continually accompanied in this life but there is One who has gone before me and prepared this road. Wow! I take a lot of comfort in that because no matter what happens I am in the hands of an Almighty God who loves me and ONLY works for my good, whether I understand it or not. My hope does not lie in what any doctor says or test result shows, my hope is in what Christ did for me on the cross, because this life is not all there is and it’s not all about me. I also know that while I am blessed with days on this earth, I will savor them, they are precious!

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In His great mercy He has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into and inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade.” 1 Peter 1:3-4